Random bits. From a random girl.

• I have cut my hair to be like this. Pixie cut. Boy cut. Shortie short. You name it. And I like it! Daisuki desu yo!
  
  

• The hair stylist that cut my hair told me that I have a healthy hair, but unfortunately not very healthy scalp, as my scalp is very sensitive. Senang nak dandruff banyak gila and merah menyala bagai naga membakar kepala. Haha. *Sigh* I do have really sensitive skin from up to toe. And now I am trying this lotion to soothe the irritated sensitive scalp of mine. :P

Wella SP Sensitive Lotion for Sensitive Scalp

• Last week, I have got a chance to talk with a Japanese client in Japanese language. But of course in broken Japanese, duh! Hehe, but still, I was given two thumbs up from my boss because of that. My boss even asked me to teach him some basic Japanese words so he could deal with his Japanese clients much easier. It did make me happy, since I was not truly enjoying much with my attachment. I know I should be open to challenges, but this is not the type of challenges that I want to face, if you wanted to know.
  
  

• I dont like make ups since I hate to take it off, the process is just ugh. Hehe, that is why my only beauty staples are lipbalm and eyeliner. My most fave lipbalm? Nivea Lip Care in Red. It adds natural color to your lips and of course protects your lips from dryness too. I always forgot to wear lipbalm before, but since I bought this one, I am being such a loyal fan. :P Macam iklan jual produk ubat kuat lak.

• I love skinny jeans. I dont know why but I always find myself feeling confident wearing it rather than any other types like boot cut, or simply slim fit. I dont have skinny legs to start with, but I dont seem to mind at all, since I feel good in it. My type of jeans that I would see wearing for a loooonnnngggg time is always this, skinny jeans dear. :) My fave now? Zara Denim Leggings. I am even thinking to buy 3 of them in different colors.:P But I always think Topshop, Levis, Twenty8Twelve and Alexander McQueen have best choices when it comes to skinny jeans.

Zara Black Skinny

• Talking about of fashion that I like, I would just say that I love colors. I adore them. I dont mind being seen wearing neon colors if I feel good in it. But I do love pastels too. Pastels make me think of cotton candies. I never wear simply black and white, except if I needed to go to court of course. Haha. But it does not mean black and white theme is boring, it is in fact look elegant with the right choice and body of course.Black and white is smexy!!!!!When it comes to fashion guru, I dont have any particulars, but I have always loved Zooey Deschanel's sense of style since she is just following her guts rather than follow the trend. And she is super duper cute.
  
  
  

• Haha, this is a super random post which I dont have any points at all. Like this one. A poster ad of 4 Japanese actors that are of course famous in Japan, and two of them are my most faves. Guess which one? :P Shun Oguri and Tsumabuki Satoshi. The guy in front and the guy at the back. And the other two guys are (Left) Haruma Miura and (Right) Eita.

• This new ad of perfume attracts me like crazy. Keeps me thinking 24/7. Haha, Just because I love the Supermodel in it, Agyness Deyn. I love her eccentric style and the way she brings herself. She is super hot in my eyes.And not to forget on the smell of the perfume. "Wild fruity floral!" Hmmm..... :)
  
  

Haha, super random is it? Well, I love being random. It is nice sometimes. Next topic, hmmm......boybands? :P

An, an, an. Totemo Daisuki. Doraemon/

I was hurt. And I am still. Kokoro ga, itai desu yo. Honki de.

Menjadi satu bahan uji kaji manusia lain ialah satu perkara yang menyesakkan fikiran. Bahan gelak. Bahan tawa. Bahan menyedapkan hati. Bahan lah.

I am not stupid. Baka janai yo.

Hanya kerana memiliki suara sehalus anime Doraemon, tidak bermakna yang saya boleh dipijak-pijak dan digelek-gelek dengan stroler.

Why do you question my voice? Nande, koe no koto ga, shitsumon arimasu yo? Sizuka poi? Nandatte?

So what, if I do have quite a small but somehow high pitched voice?

Mondai arimasuka? Watashino koe no koto.

Kalau nak samakan saya dengan watak cerita kartun yang kamu kamu semua tengok tu, tak payahlah, dah basi. Saya dah dengar komen macam ni sejak saya kenal dunia lagi. What can I do if Allah has created my voice to be this soft?

"Hm, camne nak jadi lawyer kalau suara ko macam kartun doremon ni ha. Doremon tu sepupu ko eh?"

I was even being screamed at the court just because of my voice. What the hell is wrong with that?

I am positive. I dont even question why my voice is like this. But I hate it when you tease my voice, when I just dont give a damn. Rimas sangat ok tahu tak. Kalau tanya kenapa suara saya macam ni, how should I answer that? Oh, Doremon turunkan kurniaan magikalnya pada saya ni. Kamu nak jawapan bodoh sebegitu kah untuk orang sepandai kamu?

And the most yang tak tahan sekali ialah bila kamu kata, apa pasal suara kamu tu gedik sangat, cant you talk any more serious?

Suara saya gedik? In what kind of way? I have never ever ever ever intended my voice to be this way. Why why why why why?

Arianaitsu no.

Susahlah manusia judgmental dan banyak sangat nak persoal tentang manusia-manusia lain. Saya dah semu dan jemu. Hal kamu hal kamu. Kamu nak kulit merah ke kuning ke biru ke, hal kamu, dan saya takkan tanya. Dan jangan tanya saya juga. Never question about others physically. Macam kamu persoal ciptaan Tuhan.

I am pissed long enough. Since God knows hell when.

I used to question things like that, macam eh akak tu suara cerik la. Haha, dahla suara cerik muka sombong gila. But as age comes along, I suddenly think that it is not her intention to have such voice. Tuhan ciptakan manusia berbeza-beza namun setiap satunya ada keistimewaan dan kekurangan masing-masing.

Muka bulat salah. Badan gemuk salah. Kaki kecik salah. Kaki besar salah. Tangan lidi salah. Tak ada pusat salah. Ada pusat salah juga. Gelap salah. Putih pun salah. Tangan berlipat-lipat sejuta salah. Apa yang betulnya dalam dunia ni?

Nobody is damn perfect.

So what if people dont take me serious enough for my kid voice. They are immature themselves.

For now. No regrets. Just curious over their own stupid questions.

p/s: Dont you know, many Japanese girls have softer voice than me, much much softer. So go question them!

SERABUT

Rasa mahu berceloteh dan membuang hal-hal keruh dalam otak.

Sebenar-benarnya, hidup tatkala ini memang dalam penuh keserabutan. Kerja yang di 'loathe'. Family matters. Money matters. Love matters (haha, tak ada pun pasal ni, so tolak tepi) dan diri sendiri punya matters. Friends matters? Tak ada, sebab mereka hanya menyejukkan jiwa saja. ;)


Malas nak fikir banyak sangat. Kalau fikir, memang akan rasa mahu menangis dan duduk bersedih saja. Buat apa nak buang air mata macam tu, lebih baik cuma diam dan lupakan seketika.


Sekarang memang minda tak nak fikir banyak-banyak. Susah. Nak jaga setiap penjuru perasaan manusia lain lagi, sangat menyusahkan. Kalau mereka tak gembira, tak boleh. Kena gembira. Kita tak gembira, tak apa pula pada mereka.


Kadang-kadang rasa macam in denial. Totally. Absolute denial. Macam dalam sebuah rumah banyak tingkap, tapi satu tingkap pun tak buka, dan tutup ketat padahal nak bagi sang mentari masuk menerangi rumah kan.

Sebab takut sangat. Takut kalah pada situasi. Nanti jadi sangat blank dan kosong. Dan ketika ini saat paling genting sebab semua perkara kena ada Intan, kalau tak ada Intan, tak ada perkara tersebut.


Haha. Gila. Ya memang.


Selalu berdoa hidup ini jalannya tiada lubang dan bengkak bengkoknya tak banyak sangat. Tapi Tuhan itu Maha Mengingatkan. Takkan selamanya mahu ikut highway tak ada tol tengah jalan. Jadi, nak merungut banyak sangat pun tak elok. Everything does happen for a certain reason, kan.


Sabar.

Sabar.

Sabar.


My spirit has wearing really thin. For everything. Tapi saya masih ada lagi cas positif bernyawa kelip kelip ni ha. Jadi, hidup masih perlu dan harus diteruskan dengan penuh rasa gemuruh jiwa semangat membara ok sila sambung sendiri lagu Faizal Tahir.


Hehe.


In-chan, jangan jadi itik. Jadilah sang Angsa. Dahlah cun, boleh terbang tinggi pulak tu.

Joon Sae Oppa. Daisuki desu yo.

Shining Inheritance/Brilliant Legacy

It is my current cup of tea. It has been quite a long time for not being attached to Korean dramas. Not that I loathe it or something, it is just because I am picky and I have no patience to sit and go through their long run episodes without losing my interest. And that is why, I rarely watched Korean dramas, and stick with Japanese as it will always be 10/11 episodes each time.

But I do enjoy Korean scenes once in awhile. Like this new drama I have been watching these past few days.

My roommate watched this last semester I think, and she was hooked up instantly. Basically, I am a late bloomer for everything. Hehe, so after feeling so bored and need a new thing in mind, I watch Shining Inheritance, and I feel it. Seriously. Tenkiu, Ili.

The storyline is somehow the same with the theme nowadays, a smug egoistic rich guy falling for a kind hearted girl. But of course, with a twist! The heroine, Eun Sung was actually a rich girl but her dad went brankrupt and faked his death so his family would get the insurance money.

However, she was kicked out from the house by her stepmom without knowing that her father is actually alive. With a handsome kindhearted 2nd hero in the line between her and the hero, it should be much interesting. Right?

I dont know the storyline enough, as I just watching the 7th episode but I am surely not going to butt out like I did with several unfinished Korean/Japanese dramas, and watch it religously until the end. Hehe.

And guess which hero attracts me?

Bae Soo Bin

Tada! The 2nd one which plays a kind hearted oppa named Joon Sae. He is super kind and nice which I like about him. Reminds me of Hanazawa Rui that was played by Oguri Shun in Hana Yori Dango/Boys over Flower(Japanese version).

Well, there goes my weekends. ;)

SUMANAI YO!

Life is not at ease, at the moment. Clearly, I just hate what I am going through every single day. It is ;I am not ready to just commit to much difficult responsibility or I am just plain negative, either way just make me feel so jilted.

But giving up is not the option either. I am no LOSER. I know what I am supposed to do even it is torturous to go through it every single day. Yes, I maybe exaggerate but that is what my freaking heart feels.

But ‘working life’ is not all bitter like duh. Sometimes, I do feel pumped up and ready for anything, like a super energized human machine but that rarely happens. Like only occurs, once a week? So guess what happens in other 4 working days? LOL.

I know I am supposed to be lucky since the firm I am attached to have a lot to offer in teaching me and all, I learn new things every single day. From drafting, communicating, presenting, understanding, getting, writing, reading, living, you name it.

But what happens when someone has a lot to offer to you, and you just cant take it per se, and need a lot of time to gulp it one by one.


My blog has become somewhat boring too. I talk a lot about working, as I just don’t have any other things that line up to be done. NADA. Nanimo arimasen!
Sumanai yo!



So, WEEKENDS have become my truly escapade. My one and only source of happiness. I spend most of times at home, doing things I love doing it alone ; watching my fave Japanese and Korean dramas online, blogging, reading books, and playing my Nintendo. If only I have cats to play with. Hmm.





Yes, it is all boring stuffs to you, but these are just my only world that can shift my mind to somewhere else. Heh.




Oh kay, I wont say anything about working anymore after this. Lets talk fun. And LOVE. Even I dont have any right now.;)

I cry one litre of tears.

I cried. And amazed on how LOVE could do this to you.

But love the song. Depressing yet sweet.

p/s: It is sung by one of the greatest band in Korea ( already disbanded) Loveholic. My roommate loves them much. :)

I want to become a flowerpot

I pray all the time

I want to become a flowerpot

That stands on his small window sill

Even if I won't be able to say a wordor expect anything

Loveholic- Flower Pot.

Random cry.

Hari ini dalam sejarah.

I had my first cry in the office. My mistake, and got scolded kaw-kaw by my supervisor. And there my tears flown. Haha. Dan depan dia pula kan. Last-last, my supervisor yang calmed me down. Ok, I am a cry baby. Sorry for that.

" Saya bukan nak marah awak sangat, but just to keep you aware. And besides, lawyer kan kena strong, mana boleh nangis"

Heh. Siapa kata lawyer tak boleh nangis. Haha, I cried for being so stressed. Dont blame me.

" Akak tahu awak just attachment, so still learning, chambering pun belum kan. So akak tak lah expect perfect 10 from you, cuma akak nak awak kena tindak cepat dalam hal submit perintah to the clients and all, sebab benda ni lah paling penting. Clients kena dijaga"

And today, I was called by my big boss to a very controversial one-to-one meeting. Well, basically regarding some so called 'office politics' that surround this firm. Saya sah sah tak terlibat ok. I am still new, and my boss cuma nak tahu my part as a third party, pemerhati luar kepada pergelutan panas dalam ofis yang sejuk.

And there I go, cakap saja lah apa yang terbuku di jiwa.Hehe.

Wah, baru sebulan, belum setahun. Thank God, its only 3months thing here.

Well, last Saturday I went to Malacca to visit my girls over there, sebab of course I was like missing them like super hell here.

It was great. I felt damn happy and glad I did go there. We went to watch Pisau Cukur and shop also. Haha. And now, I start to miss them again. Nasib baik tak ada boyfriend kat Jepun. Kalau tak, jenuh nak pergi Jepun setiap kali rindu. Ceh.

Anyways.

I want to share with you loveys out there, songs that are playing in my mp3. Hehe. Yes, now Korean waves all over again, basically.

Rain- Love Story (English, japanese, korean versions) I love all versions!

Loveholic- Flower Port (nice soothing voice and tune)

Kesha-Tik tok

Florence & The Machine- Drumming Song

Big Bang Japanese Album ( Love all songs to the max)

Super Junior-It is you

GD & Park Bom- Hello

Jordin Sparks- Battlefield

Muse- Unintended

Emmy the Great- Gabriel

Britney Spears- 3

Peterpan- Di Belakangku

Peterpan- Ku Katakan dengan Indah

Peterpan- Semua Tentang Kita

:)

Cry girl. :P